My First IUI

I have never been more terrified in my entire life. I underwent my first IUI almost two weeks ago and am within days of knowing whether it worked. The last couple of weeks I have been driving myself crazy looking up every symptom I could be possibly feeling. I keep telling myself to stop obsessing, stop stressing, stress can cause it to “not take”. I can’t help it though; this is all we’ve wanted for over a year now and each failed month it gets more and more devastating. Each month I become less hopeful and more cynical. You would think getting help through an infertility specialist would at the very least bring some comfort this month. But with no definitive reason for why I can’t get pregnant, it’s almost worse. I am a 24-year-old with unexplained infertility and all I can do is undergo procedure after procedure. I know that I have the best doctors in the city, and they know what they’re doing. There’s just something so terrifying about having a diagnosis of “unexplained infertility”.  It almost sounds like a cop-out. Like it’s a diagnosis they give to the hopeless women they can’t guarantee a baby. 

Update: Overall my first IUI was a pretty good experience. I didn’t have too many negative effects from the clomid and I manage to produce two dominant follicles. My husband produced a specimen with 99 million healthy sperm. The procedure itself was a bit uncomfortable but not too painful. I have an anterior facing cervix so it can be a bit hard for the nurses to find. After the procedure I was pretty sore and took it easy for the next few days. Unfortunately this cycle was unsuccessful but I’m hopeful for the next one.