Opening Up

To start off, I know it’s been a while since I wrote anything. Part of me wants to say it’s because I haven’t had much to talk about since we are currently in between infertility treatment cycles. The other part of me knows that it’s because I’ve been very at war with myself. Fighting whether I should write about how I’ve been feeling lately. But here I am, finally writing it all down. 

I recently shared my infertility story with the world and posted about what I’ve been going through to my personal social media. At the time the only people in my personal life (besides my husband) were my mom and best friend. I’m not sure if it was the best way for my siblings and extended family to find out, but I wasn’t sure who would see or read it. If I’m being honest with myself, I had a hard enough time mustering up the courage to tell my mom and best friend. I didn’t have it in me to do the same with my siblings or extended family and I really didn’t think they would care. 

The overall reaction to my posts was extremely positive. My parents, grandparents and friends have been very supportive. Everything that has been said to me has been heartfelt and full of love. I know it can be hard for people who haven’t been through infertility to find the right thing to say but I haven’t had any negative conversations or comments. People have shown their support for my husband and I in their own ways and I’m incredibly grateful. 

I’ve had more friends than family reach out to me since sharing my story. Some people have reached out to my mom and according to her not everyone knows what to say to me, which is fine. I understand, sometimes I don’t even know what to say or think in this situation. My situation isn’t easy, and I am very young, so some people don’t understand why I am where I am. More than anything, I want everyone in my life to know that they can talk to me about my infertility. Is it always going to be easy? No, but I can handle it. I’m stronger because of my infertility.