Test Results and Next Steps
The blood tests and semen analyses are both done now, and both came back completely normal. Type 1 diabetes, also known as insulin dependent diabetes, runs in my family so they checked my A1C in addition to my AMH, TSH, and Rubella AGG. My ovarian reserve is great according to my doctor and my husband has far above the average number of “swimmers”, which is all great news. You would think I would be happy that everything has come back normal so far, but it makes me a bit worried. It makes me wonder what the problem could be and why we still aren’t getting pregnant. The thought of being diagnosed with unexplained infertility scares me. With each new test coming back normal, I’m getting closer and closer to that fear becoming a reality. Closer to being told that based off everything they’ve seen, there shouldn’t be any reason why I can’t get pregnant. I’m not trying to say unexplained infertility is any worse than any other infertility diagnosis, I would just prefer to have a treatable diagnosis more than anything. I guess more than anything, I’m afraid of being diagnosed with something untreatable. I’m afraid of being told that we can keep trying IUI or move onto IVF but there’s no guarantee that I’ll get pregnant at the end of the road. I haven’t even allowed myself to think about being diagnosed with something that will prevent me from ever getting pregnant.
Update: It’s been a couple weeks since our test results came back and I’m on cycle day 35 and I’m 3 days late. My husband I were getting really hopeful that maybe this was finally going to be the month and how funny it would be if I got pregnant before even starting treatment! Unfortunately, I took a pregnancy test this morning and it came back negative (I used a clearblue digital test). I’m not nearly as devastated as I am worried. My cycle is usually very regular and I’m never late, so it has me concerned that maybe there’s an underlying problem. Everything about this process has my head spinning and I feel like I have so many more questions than answers.